life is a bitch sometimes

hate when this feeling comes back.
going through the hardest part of life.
is this what everyone goes through,
or it is just me
making things hard for myself.
but to think again,
what i'm asking for
is for people to just understand
whats deep inside me.
isnt that too much to ask for?
words that really hurt me
which is not even true.
did you ever wonder to get to know the real me?
how many times did this happens,
i dont really care anymore
what i know that
i want to chase my dreams
and no one is going in my way.

hate it when you make the situation worst for me
it just changes everything

you think you are so perfect
you think you are so good
you think your everything

why being different is so wrong?
it just take a little maturity to understand someone
how old are you again, ask yourself that
just because i do things differently
i have to feel this way
why when others do it
it is taken lightly
but when it comes to me
its like the whole world is against me

hate it hate it a lot!

to add to the madness,
all my greatest fears in life is coming
but to know that
the people who are close to me
do not know it.
all i want is for them
to comfort me
thats all
and not scold or make it so wrong.
and I freaking miss my sec sch clique
i miss them so dearly
miss my old life
im not ready for this
can someone help me
i need to be strong for myself
since no one can hear me

sighs

wish my life can be like the kids on newport habor

hey guys,



Let just say that I am only able to blog like on every friday. Like so sad right. Well cannot blame me, poly life is tiring than studying for olevels. Very hectic and tiring. A lot of stuffs to do and you still have to fit time to spend time with your friends and of cos everyone of you may notice why time in Singapore flys so fast and when I was in Indonesia, time flys freaking slow. So that adds to the fast pace life and its TIRING! the only time I can rest is during my weekends, so people dont disturb me during that days. But if you think bout it, isnt it like NO LIFE?!!??? urrgh

18 November

met kelly in her class and off to causeway point to met with blondie to have our dinner together at banquet. Had a plate of kimchi fried rice, yummy!
Had a nice time just chatting with my secondary school best bud-bud. After that had starbucks, as usual, with blondie but kelly had to leave. Had a pretty meaningful chat about life with her. I always enjoy the time spend with them despite our busy schedule.

20 November

I guess that is the drama of the year, and its over! haha
it is feebs 18th birthday. The usual clique met up to suprise her with a berry fusion cheesecake from mac cafe outside the seats at civics centre. Light up candles to us her blow. Even though we celebrated it after the real date of her birthday, I know that deep inside she enjoy the day spent with us SARANG HE!
*I still need to grap hold of the photos we took*

22 & 23 November


Me and my family went on a little vacation to one of the island of Indonesia - Tanjung Pinang. Let just say the whole trip was NO COMMENT, but I only like the part that I get to shop a little and the hotel was woah. Just dont like the whole environment there and it is just so different. But it is the experience that counts. The next time I will think twice hee

24 November

Had to skip enterprise Presentation to go for an impulse interview at Robinson together with Natasha, Siti and Syakillah. Hope that we get it cos I am seriously in need of cash for shopping spree ;) After that Natasha drove off with her boyfriend and me with Siti and Syakillah had our lunch at LJS and went off to Changi Airport Terminal 3 to relax our mind there looking at planes haha

26 November


After school hang out with Bryan, Siti and Syakillah at causeway point to have dinner and went to the Library to do our reflection journals together.

27 November

Went for Events IG meeting after school at the library. Need to make a quick decision soon.

28 November(today)

Since it was TGIF, went to have our snack at mac with Bryan, Siti and Ayman and had a great time chatting. After that I went of to go to the gym at woodlands stadium. I guess exercising gives me a chance to relax my mind and usually after that I will feel fresh! Plus I need to start training already AZA AZA FIGHTING SHAH!

woah phew, that was two weeks. I am shag now. Need to watch another episode of Survivor later, see ya

feeling feeling-less

hey guys,



High School Musical 3 - Just Getting Started

Just feeling nothing and was browsing through songs and bumped into this songs and find it quite soul healing. Listening to the song just made me feel like siting at the top of a hill with fresh green grass on a cloudy sunshine day. Its like after feeling down thinking about your problems, the song can make you feel good and give you a sense of motivation to go on in life. Kinda make you feel neutral.

So far life has been pretty tough and this year has been a lot of getting use to new lifestyle and stuffs and even new friends and people. Quite tiring and lucky I have the best people in the world and they are my friends in secondary school.

I guess I stop here, the lesson today is damn boring and I did not even know a single thing. That is how bad I am at computing stuffs.

its hard to predict..

weekends sensation

hey guys,

well the sound of weekends makes my heart jump in the air of joy and happiness. That is because the past week I have been very tired and busy lately. So I need a freaking break. I decided to let myself rest at home this weekend. I need the time to re-charge back. I guess I shall sit in my room and watch movies! yeah thats it

Last tuesday, it was the science module and our facilitator did not come on that day and so there is this noob dude on his first day of teaching came into class to take over her place. I have to be honest it was so boring that my mind was not in school and I was literally just watching movies on my laptop. So some of us decided to leave class early and go off to orchard. Actually not only us but the class was practically empty. Since the last time QQ did not get to shop at club21, so me together with QQ and siti decided to four seasons hotel to shop at club21. When we reach orchard, we were so dumb looking for four seasons hotel but we had fun hahaha. when we reach four seasons, we thought that club21 was having sale but I guess not, so it was more of window shopping. I felt ridiculous. Then had our lunch/dinner at far east and home sweet home. After all that I was lucky that faci gave me a C, SMD

On wednesday I was sad that I have to leave communication module class early as I have to go do my passport. Met my mom late but in the end my passport was a success! nice

On thursday I decided to skip my floor plan workshop to go my sister's band concert at NYP auditorium. Before that I was rushing after school to go back home to put my laptop and bag. SERIOUSLY WATCHING THEM PLAY JUST BRINGS BACK MY SECONDARY SCHOOL BAND MEMORIES. my heart was just sad to know that my high school days are over. Sitting there just gave me a flashback. that shows how much I miss my high school days.



On friday, TGIF, I went to sharmine house. Went home around 11plus.

Overall it was tiring and I feel so restless by the time it hits friday. BUT seeing my schedule in my organiser for next week, my eyes was wide open. It is even more pack. Well on a brighter note year one modules is coming to an end. Christmas is coming which equals to LOADS OF SALES! and new year is coming too which means NEW YEAR PARTY WITH MY FRIENDS! ;)

im just worried bout something and it is bothering me to the max

It's every little thing you do
That makes me fall in love with you
There isn't a way that I can show you
Ever since I've come to know you
It's every little thing you say
That makes me wanna feel this WAY
There's not a thing that I can point to
'Cause it's every little thing you do

TGIF!

hey guys,

Thank god its friday people
This week have been very shagged for me, school is obviously very tiring. Im having flu right now which adds to the madness.

Btw did I blogged about what happened during my one week term break? haha
Monday- when to my cousin house(dad side)p/s:my mood that day was not good
Tuesday-stayed at home
Wednesday-stayed at home
Thursday- when out with E35J ;D
Friday-stayed at home
Saturday- when out with my mom and sister, did a little bit of shopping
Sunday-stayed at home

The first day of school was TMTH SMD geez. MY LAPTOP DID NOT ALLOW ME TO SWITCH IT ON
what the hell la. I was seriously very pissed off that day. Went to the school IT help-desk and they told me they could not do anything and I need to go to the HP place. So I ditch school and went home and change and went to the place at braddell alone. Phew the girl who serve to me is friendly. So now they have to take my laptop from me for 2-4weeks, "gonna miss you lappy" So the next day, woke up damn early and 7.30am I reached school to loan a laptop from the school.

On thursday went for my course workshop on event floor planning. Went with kelly. It was alright la the first day, but the second day we have to create a floor plan on our own which i guess going to be fun??

So today decided to leave class early and went to esplanade area there with E35J to just enjoy the moment. Actually QQ wanted to shop at suntec cos club21 is havin a sale but then siti and syakillah have to be home early, so it was home sweet home after that.

I guess I will be at home during the weekends, which equals to boring I guess also November is going to be boring. I seriously cant wait for December to come. christmas sale and stuffs. Plus year 1 is going to end for me soon.

random acts with kelly

hey guys,

the title says it all
LOVE YA KELLY!
miss my lovelies btw LIKE BIG TIME