life is a bitch sometimes

hate when this feeling comes back.
going through the hardest part of life.
is this what everyone goes through,
or it is just me
making things hard for myself.
but to think again,
what i'm asking for
is for people to just understand
whats deep inside me.
isnt that too much to ask for?
words that really hurt me
which is not even true.
did you ever wonder to get to know the real me?
how many times did this happens,
i dont really care anymore
what i know that
i want to chase my dreams
and no one is going in my way.

hate it when you make the situation worst for me
it just changes everything

you think you are so perfect
you think you are so good
you think your everything

why being different is so wrong?
it just take a little maturity to understand someone
how old are you again, ask yourself that
just because i do things differently
i have to feel this way
why when others do it
it is taken lightly
but when it comes to me
its like the whole world is against me

hate it hate it a lot!

to add to the madness,
all my greatest fears in life is coming
but to know that
the people who are close to me
do not know it.
all i want is for them
to comfort me
thats all
and not scold or make it so wrong.
and I freaking miss my sec sch clique
i miss them so dearly
miss my old life
im not ready for this
can someone help me
i need to be strong for myself
since no one can hear me

sighs